Tank is saving me from a rubber room

I am so glad I finally got my tank this year, I think it is the only thing keeping me from a breakdown. :shock: I have allways loved the ocean, and having just a tiny piece of it in my living room has been a form of therapy for me.

The past few years have been Hell for me but the past 4 months have about driven me over the edge. Here's the rundown

Mother's Day: My mom died of a massive heart attack in her sleep. We were very close, she was only 60. Complete devestation!

June 29: My father in law died of liver cancer, which nobody knew he had.

August 13: my son (almost 21) in jail. He had made a seriuos suicide attempt 3 years ago and had been treated for depression, but last year properly diagnosed with BiPolar, unfortunately too little too late, it had pretty much destroyed his life. He has some minor legal troubles which prevented him from going to the University of Michigan as scheduled (they nailed him with a Felony for a senior prank) . Anyway, he went off his Bipolar medications, became suicidal, stole our handgun got pulled over (thankfully, so he did not complete his mission) they found the gun now he is in jail for Felon in possession, Felony firearm, Carrying concealed (because it was in a car) and habitual offender. (His original felony was grafiti on the school the day before graduation) My strait A student is now looking at Prison.:sniffles:

My hubby has blown 13 years of sobriety and back to being a full blown alcoholic again because he can't handle things. I don't drink so this is a huge problem for me.

And to top it all off I took my 2004 Trailblazer to the mechanic for what we thought would be a minor repair.............is up to $3000 rebuilt transmission and replacing Radiator from what is surely a defect (45,000 miles) but GM won't help with costs because my mechanic does not have a "GM certified" frickin sticker on the door. The closest dealership is 45 miles away and they SUCK so I don't use them except warranty or recall work when you have to.

That is the short version of the hell that is my life.:frustrat: Believe it or not, I left out a lot of "small" issues that have plagued me. I guess I just need to VENT and say that if not for the tranquility of my tank and my friends support I would surely be bouncing around a rubber room somewhere. I could probably fill a Shrinks schedule for a month with my problems.

 

Holy crap! Paging Dr. Marco! Sounds like you've had an awful year so far. In my life it seems that things always have to get worse before they get better. And it kinda seems that things can't really get any worse for you (no offense), so things can only get better from here on out, right? Feel free to use us to vent anytime, we are not only here for fish stuff.

 

Thats a lot to go through!
I wish you well and hope things get better.I'm glad this wondrous hobby of ours has therapedic values for you,as well for others and me.

 

I know something that will make you feel better. Hey, at least you have cleavage! It could be worse, you could be flat-chested like me! If nothing else, at least you have boobs...

 

silly biff lol

 

sorry to read that problems are taking over..there gonna be better times..be strong, i wish you the best!!..

 

I can relate to a few things you mentioned:

1.Depression
2. Alcoholism

I was diagnosed with both. Depression started when I was 18, alcoholism at 21.

On October 11th I will have been sober for 1 year, and I have good grip on the depression.

Going through both of those problems were a reason why I started this hobby. First to keep me busy, and second was to have an interest in something besides booze.

If you ever need to vent to someone, shoot me a PM.

Take care.

 

I too have been dealing with depression for the last several months. Going through my divorce has been rough. You are not alone, and your problems are not isolated. Please do not be afraid to see a doctor or therapist if you need to. Only after I saw my doctor and was put on anti-depressants was I able to start living somewhat of a normal life again. There is unfortunately so much stigma attached to such things (as Dr. Marco will attest to, I'm sure), but right now it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks, your number one priority needs to be to take care of yourself using whatever means possible.

 

I couldn't afford therapy for the hours it would take to dump my problems. :frustrat: I probably could use some antidepressants but I am not ready to make that step yet. If I ever feel I am really losing grip I will seek a perscription, at this point I think I'm okay.........but just got home from visiting my son and apparently there is a possibility of 16months to 5 years in prison........... I don't understand how his suicide thoughts could put him in prison for longer than someone that kills her hubby ( I think the lady that killed her hubby got 37 days). But painting graffiti on a building then possessing a firearm will get you 5 years Where is the logic in that?

I'm guessing Dr. Marco is some form of therapist since you made reference to him a couple times?! Hell, we could keep him employed for a while couldn't we. LOL

 

Oh, I forgot to to tell you Biff, The cleavage shirts have been working well. Tips have been good! :mrgreen: However I did cancel the trip yesterday, one of the girls backed out :chair:and the rest of us could not absorb the extra cost. so, I figure I'll be spending it my vacation money on my therapy (tank:mrgreen.

 

That's the thing about cleavage shirts... They always work! But only if you have cleavage . It's okay, you know what they say... More than a handful is wasteful... At least that's what I tell myself...

 

Everyone, cross your fingers for me. My son gets sentenced on Thursday. If less than a year will stay in jail anything over that is prison time, I truely believe if he goes to prison I will be burying him within a year so am really hoping for a light sentence. So if you are religious....please pray for us if not please cross your fingers and send all the positive energy you have.

 

Thanks Yote.....keep it comin' !

 

less than 12 hours to Sentencing, Anxiety is kicking in on me.

 

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